God works like a Pokemon game

I don't know about you, but to me God works like Pokemon game.

Why I say that? hehehehe... This is why.

If you play Pokemon before, you will know that no matter how well you know the game, there are some "steps" that you need to do before you are allow to advance. Like getting on a boat, talk to someone or etc. So no matter how smart or how expert you think you are in the game, you need to go and "discover" something before you are allowed to advance.

And I feel God works that way, there are times we feel so lost and stuck. And only when we learn the things God want us to learn, then we will be allowed to  "advance".

And in this season of my life, God creatively talk to me about Faith. And man! I love the feeling of a message burning inside of my heart. Will share more after I digest all that it is in my mind now!

Be persuaded

... Reading all those posts on the wall of my FB. What happened to this place that once was safe for all of us? Why the greed of the people can just take over the welfare of others?

Selfishness is a very very very evil thing. It hurts the people around you when you are controlled by this evil spirit. You think you are doing the right thing, yet you are too blind to see the truth. You think you are doing yourself a favour, but you can't see that you are walking towards disaster!

My heart breaks, my tears flow. This place I love and I still love no matter what.

I'm desperate for a saviour who will stand up and speak the truth and take action for those who are helpless. We combined our forces but the dark has tricked the light by saying itself is light and portraying himself as the light. But we are not fools that are blind, we will not sit and just wait

I will cry out to The Lord of all nations and city to intervene in this and fight for us. Nothing is too great for Him to handle. When all seems dark, my hope remains on Him and Him only. When all seems impossible, I put my trust in Him who did, doing and will do the impossible! No matter how dark it might seem, no matter how darkness persuade me that it is impossible, I will shift my focus and say it is possible! Not because how great my faith is, but how great my God is!

Even when I came to a point where I have no strength to hold on, I said a prayer "God help my unbelieve!" and He indeed persuaded me of His greatness! Lord, show your glory!

Imma talk about water baptism

"You're going for your water baptism? Really?"

"Yup~ this weekend. Why?"

"You sure or not? When you are in, you cannot come out already. Die die is Christian d!"

"Ya. But..."

Ok, so this was my conversation with my friends few years ago before I had my water baptism. They were very concern about me going to be water baptized because they think that once I'm water baptized  I'm a "copped and signed" Christian and I cannot change religion anymore. (Not that I want to) But to me, it is not like what they thought it is.

Being a Christian is having a personal relationship with God. Whether I'm water baptized or not, if I don't have a relationship with God, Jesus will not know me. And if I have a personal relationship with God, but I'm yet to be baptized, I'm sure if I'm dead and go to heaven, Jesus will still recognize me. Christianity is not a religion stated in your I/C but a PERSONAL RELATIONSHIP with God.

Matthew 7:21-23
Not everyone who says to Me, 'Lord, Lord,' shall enter the kingdom of heaven, but he who does the will of My Father in heaven. Many will say to Me in that day. 'Lord, Lord, have we not prophesied in Your name, cast out demons in Your name, and done many wonders in Your name?' And then I will declare to them, 'I never knew you; depart from Me, you who practice lawlesssness!'

How to know the will of God? Have a personal relationship with Him. How? Read the bible and pray!

I remember Pastor Bobby once told us that when he went for mission trip, one of the member came and ask him to water baptize all his friends. He was more than happy to do that. On that day, Pastor Bobby went to that place and he saw all of them smoking, full of foul languages in their mouth and tattoos were all around their body.Get the picture? So Pastor Bobby was curious and he went to that member and ask him where these people came from. And the member said this "All these are my gang members! I want them to have eternity, so I ask them all to come to be water baptized!". No! Water baptism is not a guarantee certificate for eternal life!

So what is water baptism all about? Water baptism is a public confession of your faith. That you believe in the Lord Jesus, you believe that He had died for your sins and now you are forgiven by the grace of God and accepted in the Kingdom of Christ. You confess what you believe through your action.

But more than just a public confession, water baptism symbolize Jesus's death, burial and resurrection. That after you are water baptized, you are dead towards your old sins, cover by the blood of Jesus and now you raise as a New Man in Christ.

I always thought that water baptism is only a public confession of my faith. Is like telling the whole world "Hey y'all! I'm a Christian you know! I believe in God!" full stop, end of story! Little did I know that water baptism represented more than just public confession. But there are spiritual elements in it!

I heard testimonies like someone who have tattoos all over his body was water baptized and when he came out of the water, his tattoos were all gone. Well, I din't know whether the water was dirty after that, but either way, is still a miracle! And the other one I heard is someone with smoke addiction problem was water baptized and when he came out of the water, his addiction was miraculously gone! Praise the Lord!

What I'm trying to say is, we tend to reduce the significance of water baptism. More than a public confession, water baptism symbolize us dying with Christ on the cross, nailing our old self, bury our sin nature and by the power of the blood of Jesus and the grace of God we are raise up as a New Man in Christ.

So if you are going to be water baptized soon, please don't forget what water baptism is all about. Be water baptized, declare your faith and expect a miracle from God! Whatever you need to have a breakthrough, leave it all into God's hand, bury it with Christ, and resurrect with Christ as a new being. Expect a miracle!

Hope you are blessed!

p/s: I wish I knew this before I was water baptized, then I would have believe in God for a miracle. Can I be water baptized again? please~~~~

pp/s: This are my thoughts on water baptism, leave a comment if you think otherwise! 

My spiritual parents

When the world started to release their arrow of judgement and condemnation towards the couple. I stand at the side with them receiving the attacks from others who call us blind and brain washed. I kept silence when the case opens another chapter back in 2012, I walked away when I faced the reporter, I kept silence when people question me about them.

Few years back, I was one of those who questioned about it. Before understanding more about the cultural mandate and knowing more about this couple that lay down their life for God, I was one of them who question if it is appropriate for a Pastor's wife to dress like that, sings like that, in all to be in the entertainment world. To me it was, like others would say, too sexy and too revealing. I wondered too if what she was doing was appropriate, but I did not get the answer after few years later when I humbly come back to Christ again. Don't get me wrong here, I left church that time for personal reasons, it wasn't because of them. Christianity is my personal relationship with God, it will not be affected unless I decided to let it be affected.

I was willing to clap my hands and celebrate when a celebrity accept Christ. I rejoiced as finally there is a glimpse of light in the entertainment world which I considered as darkness. But when a Christian decided to step into the entertainment world, I called  it evil, obsessed with money and fame, consumed by the world. 

Why is there a double standard? Can't a Christian have the calling in life to bring the light into the darkness instead of just praying for a miracle of a glimpse of light to appear? Does not Jesus eat with the tax collectors? Jesus did not suddenly appear among the tax collectors, but He went into their crowd and saved them.

God gracefully opened my eyes and let me see that what she was doing was beyond what I thought. What I couldn't see from the music video was the hours she spends training her singing skills and dance movements. What I couldn't see from the numerous music awards she got was the souls and lives she had brought into the Kingdom of God. What I could not see from her glamorous lifestyle was the condemnation slapped on her face for crossing over. What I could not see from those bad comments about her was her heart that loves Jesus. It wasn't that much about her career in pop music or the dress she wears, but the life and sacrifices she made for Jesus.

I thank God that they obediently cross over. Without them doing so I may not be who I am today. It is because of them I have a spiritual family, I have a church that I call home and most importantly I have a personal relationship with God. So no matter what happens in the future, it will not affect my love towards God, my believe in the crossover project and my gratitude and love towards them. I'm proud to say that they are my spiritual parents.


Pastor Kong and Sun, I love you and thank you. Looking at your lives it impacted me a lot, beyond words can describe.

Coincidence or God?

My mom says that poor people cannot afford to get sick. Well, I think is kinna true. With the medical cost so high nowadays, is not cheap to get sick. And not to forget to mention that when you are sick, you have no income. So is like a double lost, no income somemore need to pay. >< this was one of the reason I refuse to see doctor for the past few years. No offence to good doctors, but there are greedy doctors out there (quoted from one of my doctor). And when money is the issue, they will persuade you to do surgery no matter what. Therefore I refuse to see doctor, I don't trust them.

But I thank God for this doctor I'm seeing right now. He was one of my parent's student. I believe that someone that visits their teacher during Chinese New Year after so many years can be trusted. And I've read some of the reviews about him, he don't opt for surgery. So I thank God that He placed this doctor into my life. 

I mean how on earth can this be a coincident if is not God's plan. Coincidently he is my parents's student? Coincidently he is a doctor? Coincidently he met my mom a few years ago? Coincidently he is based in Subang? And on top of all that, coincidently he is an expert in this field?  I DON'T THINK SO. 

This is like the story of David fighting Goliath. If you are not familiar with this story from the bible, it is about young David took down Goliath of the philistines (the enemy). Goliath was a huge size giant, no one in the Israel army have the guts to take him down. But young David went all out with his shepherd's staff, selected five smooth stones from the brook and beat the Philistine with a sling and a stone. 

It might seem insignificant, but I believe that those 5 smooth stones are prepared by God. The stones was at the right place at the right time in the right condition. It wasn't too small or too big, it wasn't too rough but smooth from the current of the river. It is the work of God. And God did not just prepare one that David needs, but FIVE! Our God is really a God of abundance, not only He prepares what we need, He prepare more than what we need. God foresees the future and He prepares beforehand for us.

Same like the story of Jonah. He was swollen by a huge fish and was in it for three days and nights. Is it a coincident that there is a fish huge enough to swallow Jonah in? I don't think so. God must be looking after of this fish, keep it safe and feed it to make sure it will be big enough to swallow Jonah in. 

So yeah! As I believe God prepared those 5 stones and the huge fish, I also believe that God prepare this doctor for me. Nothing really happen just like that or out of luck. Praise God for that!

Maybe some of you are thinking "If God foresee the future, does it mean that I'm not making my own choice, but it is predestined by God?" Well, no. Because David had the choice to not go out and fight Goliath, but as he take a step of faith and believe in God, he can go out without fear because God had prepared what he needed, even more. Same like me, if I never decide to seek help and tell my parents, I will never know that this doctor exist. And like Jonah, he choose to run away from God, therefore the fish came and swallow him. So even though we might make the wrong decisions in life, God will try His best to bring us back, but is still your choice.

In all, take a step of faith and don't worry that you might not have what you need. Because God foresees it and He already prepare all those for you, even more.

Give out of LOVE

Somehow I just have this feeling to share this message here. This is an offering message I wrote 2 weeks ago for my CG Offering challenge. Well, it did not went well when I shared it in CG. Somehow I'm so so soooooooooooo nervous that I was shivering, from my mouth to toe! It was embarrassing. Somehow my CG leader make me nervous!!! It happen during preaching test too!! TT But no matter how bad I did, I still want to share it here, because my performance do not affect the quality of the message in blog~ hahaha

*Offering Challenge Message*

Mark 12:41-44
Now Jesus sat opposite the treasury and saw how the people put money into the treasury. And many who were rich put in much. Then one poor widow came and threw in two mites, which make a quadrans. So He called His disciples to Himself and said to them, “Assuredly, I say to you that this poor widow has put in more than all those who have given to the treasury; for they all put in out of their abundance, but she out of her poverty put in all that she had, her whole livelihood.”

When I read about this story about Jesus praising the widow for giving her all, I cannot help but wonder whether by giving my all will definitely touch God’s heart. Because the bible says that “but she out of her poverty put in all that she had, her whole livelihood”

Does this mean that whenever we give our offering, we should give all that we have then God will only acknowledge it?

Yes? No? or don’t know?

Let’s see what the bible says. In vs 41 it says “Now Jesus sat opposite the treasury and saw how the people put money into the treasury”. He saw how the people put money into the treasury. Not what, but how they put into the treasury. Friends, is not the money or the percentage of our belongings that God is concern about. But how we are giving Him the offering. The attitude that is in our heart when we place our money into the offering envelope.

What kind of attitude should we have that pleases God’s heart? Is it a heart of expectancy that when I give God will bless me back? Or is it a heart of obedience? I’m doing it just because I’ve been doing it since young.

Let us learn the heart of giving from the ultimate giver, God Himself.

In John 3:16
“For God so loved the world He gave His only begotten Son.” 

For God so loved the world He gave His only begotten Son. It is out of the heart of love that God gave Jesus to save us. He love us therefore He gave.

Guys, this is the ultimate attitude we should have when we give to God! We give out of Love.

1 Corinthians 13:3 says
“And though I bestow all my goods to feed the poor, and though I give my body to be burned, but have not love, it profits me nothing”

We always say Christianity is different from other religion, and it is! Because we as Christian do everything out of the heart of loving God and loving people.

So friends let us give out of a heart of love. Let us use our giving today to express our love towards God. The world sees money as number 1 in their life, but let us tell God through our giving that He is our number 1 in our life. Amen?

Let us pray.
[say a simple prayer before passing the offering envelope out!]

-the end-

Call me Miss Constance

I've been asking God for an English name for a period of time. I did thought of naming myself, but no matter which name I choose it just didn't feel right until that day.

During the worship session, we sang "You are for me". Is not the first time I heard or sing this song, but that time was definitely the first time the word "constant" touch my heart.

So faithful. So constant. 

So loving and so true.
So powerful in all You do.

You fill me. You see me. 
You know my every move 
You love for me to sing to You.

I know that You are for me. 
I know that You are for me.
I know that You will never
forsake me in my weaknessesI know that You have come now
even if to write upon my heart
To remind me who You are.

So patient, So gracious, 
So merciful and true
So wonderful in all You do. 

I just felt that God wants to remind and keep reminding me that His Love towards me it constant and unchanging. And He also wants me to Love Him constantly and unchanging. Not fluctuating now and then but keep loving Him forever and ever.

I asked my "mama" after that, she told me "Constant" is for boy so is better to use the name "Constance" which have the same meaning.

So that's how I name myself Constance, believing it is an answer from God.

I'm still not used to it yet. But I'm trying to be! 

Destiny In Heaven

“If only 1 out of 6000 babies get this syndrome and that 1 baby happened to be ours, then I'm very sure God has a purpose and we just have to trust Him.”

Baby D's mama shared this in Destiny's memorial service. Her faith in God blows my mind away. Until now, I never see someone to be this optimistic and look at her situation in a totally different way. BBD's family is the most amazing family I've ever seen. We went to the memorial to show our support, to give them love and comfort, but at the end they are the one who told us "is ok". They truly believe that God has planned this out for a reason. They mourn for Destiny's departure, but at the same time they rejoice that Destiny no longer suffer on earth, but rest well in Abba Father's hands. Their faith is just too amazing and overwhelmed for me to understand. 

In baby Destiny's memorial, tears kept rolling down from my eyes. Looking at her sparkling eyes shining with peace, it really makes my heart hurts even more. She's a beautiful baby, she is our little warrior princess.


They played this short video of Destiny's life. I will never forget how she fights for every breath of her life. To get a gaps of air, Destiny have to breaths in very very hard. She would have to give her very best, using all her strength to breaths in so that she could survive. Destiny makes me realise that I’ve been taking advantage on this privilege that I had, to be able to breaths easily is also a blessing from God.

Destiny taught me to appreciate my life more. Years ago I knew that my parents didn't plan to have a third child a.k.a. me. They didn't tell me directly, I just overheard it from a conversation of my dad with his friend. I never knew what made them decide to keep me, but this had been a thorn in my heart. Every time I felt disappointed about my parents, I will secretly ask why have they give birth to me. And every time I think I disappointed them, I will think whether they regret keeping me. I always felt the need to know the reason, but Destiny proves me wrong. From Destiny’s life, I've learn to appreciate my life more. No matter what made my parents kept me, is not important anymore. I'm born, I'm healthy, and I can breaths smoothly. I shouldn’t care why they decided to gave birth to me, the most important thing is I’m here, I’m healthy and I have a loving family. I need to appreciate this life that I have.

For those who knows, my back problem had been bugging me for more than 2 years already. And whenever I feel very painful, I ask God why, sometimes I even blame God why I'm not cured. But seeing Destiny fight for every breath, my back pain is nothing. Is nothing at all. I should embrace this pain and look at those blessings that I had in my life. I can live through this pain if it never get cure. I can fight, as BBD fight for her life. My pain compared to Destiny's struggle is nothing at all. Destiny taught me not to care about these petty things, as long as you live, fight for your life, your destiny.

Very often in life I tend to look at the things that I do not have and concentrate on the pain in my life. But this is life. Life is not without any ups and downs. But those ups and downs are just temporary and I have more and more to give thanks and appreciate of. I’ve been living in a comfortable environment and had been taking things for granted. Not knowing how to appreciate every single thing in life and keep complaining is just not right. Is time to change! Because now I know, as long as I live, is enough for me to give thanks for and is enough for a reason for me to think positively. Just have faith in God that everything happen for a reason and all I need to do is depend on Him and believe in Him.

When I saw Destiny in her coffin, she's so tiny and adorable. Our little princess warrior did more than I've done for past 22 years. She sleep soundly now in the arms of our heavenly father. Until we meet again Baby Destiny, I will always remember you.


A hand sign of Destiny:

Destiny Zoe Oh's Facebook: http://www.facebook.com/DestinyOh

Baby D's papa mama eulogy: http://www.trisomy18.org/site/TR?pg=fund&fr_id=1070&pxfid=8950

Please read the eulogy. Is very meaningful and life changing!

Someone wrote a poem for Destiny as below:

*All photos are taken from Baby Destiny's Facebook page.

Sacrifice of praise

Until now, I'm still overwhelmed from what had happen since Tuesday. My leaders little precious angel is still in the hospital, fighting for her life. Such a brave girl, such a fighter. Only a few days old, and she's already fighting for her life, not giving up.

Before she was born, she already brought all of us so much joy. Not only to her parents but to all of us. We were all excited about her even before she was born. Everyone was so happy when they found out she was conceived in her mother's womb. We were all touching her mom's belly hoping to feel a kick from her. I never once be so excited about something until I check my tweets every 5 mins, just to make sure I do not miss any latest update of her. She brought us a lot of joy indeed.

Now seeing her in tubes, my heart break. Although I can only see her photos, I've already fell in love with her. Such a beautiful baby, with such beautiful eyes. Her eyes make my heart melt.

I cannot understand why these things happen to her. In terms of natural or the supernatural. But I believe in God's infinite wisdom that whatever that is going on right now is for a purpose. He have everything in control. He IS in control.

Today, I really experience the sacrifice of praise. Seeing my leaders keeping their faith strong in God really encourage me. They set their faith in God, and embrace the will of God. For the whole day I feel so burden in my heart. Can't really do anything, I wasn't acting like myself. But in all that had happen, I learn to give praise to God. Keep thanking Him for His wonder. Keep believing that He has the perfect plan for her.

My God is a Healer! My God is a Miracle Maker. I believe our little angel will experience a miraculous!

Destiny, Aunty Shu Qing Love you very very much!!!!!! Be strong keep fighting! I want to give you a big big hug when I come back! And buy you an Eeyore!!!

To everyone who is reading this, please pray together with me. She needs a miracle touch from God. Let's us all believe that our God will heal her and day by day she will be stronger and stronger! Keep her family in prayers too! Pray that God's grace is upon them and will bring them trough this period of time. And pray that God will provide them with all that they need financially. Amen!

You can read more information here:

http://www.facebook.com/DestinyOh

A broken heart

I don’t know about you. But deep inside my heart I feel that every heart in this world is broken.

Some are broken by disappointment, some are broken by betrayal, some are broken because the lost of someone close and some are broken because of a painful past.

No matter what it is, there is something in our heart that we rather not say nor mention. If possible, we would like to erase it from our history. But we don’t have any time machine, and life goes on. Hearts are broken and time passed on. We all think that time is the only cure for heartache. But no matter how long it had past, a hurt is still a hurt until it is fully recover.

No one in this world is perfect. When someone disappoints us, we tend to go and find someone else to fill the emptiness in our heart. But slowly it became like a routine, there is always this someone that will hurt us followed by another, a non-ending routine.

God says “Give me your broken heart, and I will heal it”. No one in this world is perfect. No one’s love could ever fill the emptiness in our heart. We will still be disappointed by other people, because no one is perfect. But God is, God’s Love is perfect. He loves us no matter what we had done in the past. No matter how broken we are, no matter how wicked we are, God still LOVE us.

There is nothing we can do to make Him Love us more, there is nothing we can do that will make Him Love us less.

God’s love is not gained by hard work. God just love us.

Give your heart to Jesus, and let Him heal it and let Him love you.

My Miracle

I know this is a bit late to post it here. But is better than never right?


I experienced a miraculous healing last Friday. When Pastor Ming asked if anyone had unequal length of hands or leg, I quickly raised up my hand because I knew since last year that both of my legs are unequally long. We were asked to gather in our teams and pray for those in need of this miracle. So my team members and I gathered together and I took off my shoes to show them the difference of my legs. They were amazed to see that my leg was unequally long. They say the difference was an inch long. I’m not sure, but I know my right leg’s ankle is literally on top of my left leg’s ankle.

So we started to pray in the spirit and they start laying their hands on my leg. After praying for some time, I could hear other teams cheering for joy and praising God for the miracle that happened. But till then, nothing happen to me. I wasn’t sure how I felt that time, my friend asked me not to pray in the spirit but just receive the healing. One of them also came to me and recites a verse to me, she asked me not to be discouraged and trust in the Lord for this healing.

When they start praying again, I did not pray in the spirit anymore but receive the healing. I kept saying in my heart that I believe in God and I believe God will believe. But after some time nothing happen, and I felt that God telling me that the reason I kept saying I believe is because I do not believe and I’m trying to persuade myself to believe. Once this thought hit me, I start confessing to God and asked God to help my unbelief. And that was when the miracle started to happen.

I start feeling power flowing through a touch. I thought it was the touch of God, so I opened my eyes and look, it was my friend’s hand. I could feel power releasing through her hands. Then I felt my jeans moving. But it didn’t! What I felt was actually the stretch of my leg.

And praise the Lord, when we compare my legs again, it was totally the same length! Not longer and not shorter! Is totally the same length! Praise the Lord.

It was an amazing experience for all of us. My friend saw with her on eyes that my leg was stretched 3 times! 3 times! And the girl who I felt power flowing from her also felt that power were releasing through her. She said she was praying and she felt her hands so hot, and she knows that she needs to lay her hand on me. Another one felt the stretch of my leg too. She thought someone was pulling my leg, but no one was pulling. It was God!

I really thank God for this miraculous healing. It couldn’t happen without my team member’s support and prayers. And it definitely would not happen without God’s grace. Feel so blessed! Thank You, Abba!

The Mighty Cross

Thank You for the cross, the mighty cross,
That God Himself should die for such as us,
And everyday we're changed
Into Your image more and more,
Yes, by the cross we've truly been transformed.

And we're so amazed, and we give You praise
That You would save us at such a cost.
We're so amazed, and we give You praise
For the power of the cross,
For the power of the cross.


I can't get the lyrics out of my mind after we sang it in SOT the other day and I got the inspiration to sketch the cross. The Mighty Cross.

I din't know about this until I came to SOT. All these while I thought trough the cross only our sins are forgiven and we have eternal life. But through the cross Jesus did more than what I thought. His sacrifice gave us everything.

Through the cross, He took away my SINS and gave me FORGIVENESS.
Through the cross, He took away my REJECTION and gave me ACCEPTANCE
Through the cross, He took away my SICKNESS and gave me HEALING
Through the cross, He took away my CURSE and gave me BLESSINGS
Through the cross, He took away my POVERTY and gave me PROSPERITY
Through the cross, He took away DEATH and gave me ETERNAL LIFE
Through the cross, He took away my REBELLIOUS NATURE and gave me a NEW MAN

Whenever I think about the cross, I think about what Jesus had been through for us and tears couldn't stop rolling down from my eyes. Thank You Jesus for the CROSS.

Count your blessings

I don't know about you, but I'm that kind of girl that can be a bit too EMO. Sometimes it just happen suddenly and I could not pull myself back!

I still remember just few weeks ago, I was super EMO and very very down. I've talk about it with a few person but it did not get better but it got worst. I was at the point where I want to just shut myself down again. But thank God for good leaders in my life! And Thank God for opening my eyes too see!

I was too concentrate on the things I did not have, I've overlooked the things that I had and experience! I were too busy comparing myself to other people and I neglected the fact that I've got something too!

They always had this saying that people tend to remember the sad things in life rather than the happy moments. Maybe that's the problem. I tend to put myself in a place where I can be vulnerable, where others can sympathies me.

But the fact is I can be strong just that I refuse to be strong. I choose to look at the downside rather than the upsides. So I've been training myself to give thanks every single day. For blessings, for those little things that I have, for everything that I have.

I do not want to overlook the blessings that God had placed in my life because of the small little pile of "rubbish" in my life which would eventually be gone!

Never take God for granted. I'm thankful that He LOVES me.