Drafts e-mails

Saw that I have 81 drafts emails. I was curious, so I randomly open one and read. And it brings back memories.

My draft inbox is like my note book when I'm using other's people computer.

And during my internship period, is where I save something, MSN conversations.

I read back all that was said and heard. Things that was promised is broken now. Things that we had has faded.

I smiled, with tears rolling down from my eyes.

What more can I say? Other than, I'm sorry.

Maybe I never should have open the shell.

peek through the door

Wanted to talk about something else today but leader's meeting was longer than I thought. So I think I'll write about it tomorrow or maybe this weekend. Suddenly all my time slot is packed and I'm planning to slot more things in! I feel like something I'm going to break free! And with this thought, I was inspired to draw the bellow drawing!

I've been in this comfort, protected shell for long enough and I'm willing and starting to breakdown the wall that hinders me to go fourth. It does not guarantee success, but it guarantees adventure! And that's what I'm looking forward too!

I talked to one of my SOT friend last few nights and I ask her what are my shortcoming. And she said this: 

You see! I'm a weird mix! When I don't know that person I'm seem like a serious person and hard to get along, hide my feelings and shut the door to my world. But on the other hand, I always show people how I feel, no matter who they are! So people will often think me as hot tempered and unfriendly...  ><

With that in mind, I have this picture came into my mind and I drew it out!

Don't you think knowing someone new is like letting the person coming into your life? And you got to be careful who you let into that door! Because they might just steal something and leave you feeling empty. Or they might just break your stuff and act like nothing happen and leave. So is tough! Is not easy! And that's why I peak out of the door and not open it before I know them better.

Oh well, still more to discover about myself!

So I shall end this with a picture of my Hong watching iPad! hahahahahaha~

Inconsistency

OMGoodness! I din't notice is been so long since I last updated my blog. >< Oh well, I guess this is the result of procrastinating. Got to be constant because my name is Constance. LOL.

Anyway, if you think the lack of updates is because nothing happened for the past few days, you are WRONG! Is directly the opposite! A LOT had happened but I don't want to bored you with the details.

So in summary, these are the list of things that happened:
1. DR AR Bernard came to preach for 2 nights.
2. Baby Caedy was too sleepy that 2 nights and I did not get to carry her. And she became more cute like that's possible.
3. I finished my Thai Language exam and I failed! >< I know how to write and read but I'm not good in remembering what is what.
4. For the first time in my life I'm writing a full length sermon. Meaning is for 30 minutes to 1 hour long. I never did this before, even my sermon for mission trip last year was too short.
5. I'm making videos. But don't you worry. I've uploaded none, because is not presentable.
6. I was on duty for translation last Sunday and I think I did a better job compared to the last time as I'm more calm.
7. Bird's poop land on my car again!
8. God provided me opportunities! ^^
9. I bought books again! A lot of them! for FREE! Thanks to my generous sister!
10. The weather nowadays are too hot for me to work!!!! ><

That's all for now, but more will come! I promise! I've a lot of plans in mind waiting for me to execute it!!!