Friday, June 15, 2012

I'm in dilemma!!

I've gone a bit crazy lately. People have mid-age crisis but I think I have mid-year crisis. I suddenly became obsessed with with job hunting. And I will not graduate until the end of September! I have exactly 100 days till I end my studies here in Singapore! The problem was super duper serious. For more than a week, I search through the internet for jobs until like 2 am! And I still have class the next day!

This “issue” started a few weeks ago when one of my friends randomly asked me what I’m going to do after graduation. It didn’t bother me a lot that time, but just 2 weeks ago when I go through some of my old e-mails this matter pops up in my mind again and I can’t seem to shake it off! Argh!!! Is pretty frustrating you know!

It bothered me so much that my mama in SOT also notice, I told her what happen and she seems to understand how I feel. Super Gan Dong le~ I was super duper emotion! I almost cried in front of her! *shy* She told me not to worry about this things first and just enjoy the days left in SOT, Singapore. My mama says I shouldn’t let things like this to steal the joy that I should have! Well, she’s right.

But I’m just too stubborn! I still looked for jobs until the night before yesterday. And I got soo frustrated with myself that I’ve decided not to care about my career until I get back to Malaysia! I really can’t afford to deal with anything that is outside of school right now because time is flying and September is coming!!! Ah~~~~~~~

I’m in a bit of a dilemma right now la~ Part of me want SOT to end faster so that I could get back to my real life and start applying what I learn, another part of me feel so comfy in Singapore and in SOT that I would like to be here forever! But they won’t want to keep me forever! Haha~ hm… I think I should pray for time to move like a tortoise so that September would not come so fast! XD 

On an unrelated note, I’m going back to Malaysia in July!!! Yeappy! Can’t wait to bring those books back and place it on my shelves! Can’t wait to have a hair cut! Can’t wait to visit the brand new mall next to my house! (Ya! There is a mall next to my house! Jealous?! XD) Can’t wait to taste some Malaysian food! (Should I give a list to my real mama?) And definitely can’t wait to see my family members! (and my hongs! XD)

*counting down 100 days!
**all emoticons are taken from photoScape


Oyan said...

Can't wait to have you back in Malaysia!!!!!!! XD XD XD

ConstanceSQ said...

When? July or September? I want eat sea food!!! ^^

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